Spirituality and Death

Being a holistic practitioner I am often curious about the body, mind, and of course, spirit. This curiosity lead me to many experiences in learning about life, death, and spirit. These experiences would transform my life. This past week brought several deep reminders of what death means. The subject of death and dealing with potentially terminally ill family came up at a meeting I host, Evolving Minds. Tomorrow, Saturday morning marks 20 years since my mother left this world. The past 6 months brought two eye opening experiences about my own mortality, and the past 10 years have been filled with surprises from the spiritual world.

I was only 20 when I lost my mother. She was only 41. As I sit here 40 years old and 20 years later I can not imagine being in her place. I can not imagine knowing I was going to die and leave my children. I have no idea how one prepares for such an event. I do not know what she would be like much past my own age now. I often wonder what kind of grandmother she would be and if she would be proud of who I grew up to be. And I even wonder what she would look like since I look so much like her. There is something that changes in a person when one reaches the age of their parent’s death. There is something that changes within a daughter when she loses a mother so young and spends decades wondering what it would be like to have a mother. The pain I felt eventually lead me to peace.

I have never believed in actual death. I have always believed that there was some part of me that would transcend this world. What that may look like or feel like I do not know, but I am receiving glimpses. My 40th birthday was in May and close to that time I had an experience that left me confident that there was an aspect of me that was not my physical body. That part of me was free. I spent the day crying and convincing myself that it was ok stay, I had things to finish here. I vowed to remember those feelings of peace and freedom and to carry them with me in this world. Then, late this summer I had an episode where I lost consciousness and someone had to revive me. I have no recollection of the event. Everything was black. And I wondered if that was what death was like?

Over the past 10 years I have had countless experiences that were not of this world. Some of them included loved ones who have passed. I do not have an explanation for this. I have tried to use science and that helps, but it can not really express the magnitude of such experiences. I am forever grateful to those loved ones that have reappeared reminding me that death is not real. Reminding me that some aspect of them is still with me. Thank you mom, Mr. Hennessey, Felix, and Ben Johnson. I loved you when you were here and I love you now.

These experiences allow me to have a greater respect for life. I take things a little slower, I am a little easier on myself, things that bothered me are easier to let go of, and I love people and experiences so much more deeply. I honor the experiences, even the painful ones like the loss of loved ones. Those experiences remind me of who I AM. Today, take some time to honor your life and your path and to also honor those that may no longer be here with you in the same way. Those loved ones may be closer than you thought.

Namaste,
Amy McCae
Holistic Life Coach
http://www.amymccae.com

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Did Jesus Die So That You Could Be Forgiven For Your Sins?

Today I attended my Grandmother’s funeral. God Bless you Grandma, I know you are at peace. I, however, was not feeling peaceful during the service.  The concept that Jesus died so that we could be forgiven for our sins and granted eternal life never made sense to me. This minster was quite adamant that if you did not believe this that you will not be allowed into the Kingdom of Heaven and that you would suffer for eternity. I do not believe this and for multiple reasons.

First, my curiosity caused me to research many different religions and to attend a variety of different spiritual practices. Those experiences alone at the most basic level have me ask ; “What about Buddhist or Hindus?” Are they going to hell?  I found that many different churches (Christianity based) taught different things from the same Bible. Different ministers had different perspectives on Scriptures.  Some of the most influential courses I took were Silva Life System courses. I learned to really understand Quantum Physics, the mind and how it relates to spirituality, as well as religion. The first Silva class I took was taught my a Catholic priest. This man agreed that the Church messed up and that the Scriptures were not being taught as they were meant to be.

I have also watched a number of history programs and one stands out above the rest. Did you know that there are other books of the Bible? One being Adam and Lilith? You see, Lilith was Adam’s first wife. There was a group of people who decided you did not need to know that information. Lilith embodied that which all women should, she was sexual and sensual, and all woman.  This story should be one that was left in the Bible, as should they all really.  If select books are edited, left out, and what is remaining  is then translated into a different language and left for interpretation by the reader how can you really know?

I believe in God. I believe that God is everywhere and within each and every one of us and that God is a kind God.  I believe that we are eternal. You do not need to be saved. You and I are spiritual beings having a physical experience. You came here to learn just like a child does. You will not get it perfect all of the time, you are not supposed to. You are already forgiven.

That Energy that is of God flows through you is how you use your God-given gifts.  Your purpose here is to find God, and there are many paths, and do good with your gifts.  This could be an artist’s painting, the playing of a piano, the building of a home, the nurturing of a child, or anything that allows you to do what your passionate about that helps the world be a better place.

You need not worry about any religion telling you that you are less than God. You need not pay attention to anyone preaching ideas that feel threatening.  You simply need to follow your heart. You are of God and you are eternal.

Amy S McCae

http://www.creativewellnessomaha.com